Happinessfree.

I never knew i had a choice. Not in this. Somewhere deep in my mind, i started out knowing This was neccesary. Isn't This a neccesity?

Today, he gave me a choice. Not two choices so he gave me another option, really. He said he hopes i choose what i did not know was a choice to begin with. My minds doing overtime so i guess the rest of me's accomodating.

I don't remember exactly what i'm upset about but i'm indefinitely upset. Everything. What IS everything? Why is it always every-fckin-thing!

Auto-run's began. I'm feeling less & less & less. The pain of wanting to know disappates as I suddenly find myself quite simply not wanting to know anymore. Lovely thing this self-defence machanism of mine. Wonder where it will take me this time.

P.S - It's not "happynessfree". And if this is not letting it fade, i don't know what is.

Fading.

-Sweetnessless-

Comments

[wkhai]

"... he hopes i choose what i did not know was a choice to begin with..."

-- hahah, deeep... he was hoping that what you did not choose wasn't really an option?...

as in, for example... you only want RED. If the options avaiable are RED, orange, yellow... you'd choose RED cos the other two weren't really an option. However, if it was dark red, bright red, faded red... that would've been really testing your decision...

i'm making sense, i think... :P

self-defence mechanism is good... keeps u sane ;)

[louis]

just want to say hi!