Language : My greatest 'Love'barrier.

In response to wkhai on my post Silenced Epiphanies, silent approaches are best subtly leaked into another, like a poison to spread slowly. It gets d job done eventually does it not. Haha ;p Think i get wat u mean by not so 'subtle' approach' but really i dont intend for me writting it here to be heeded by another. It merely eases my moments of sudden sanity. 'Sanity' coz i feel i'm most truthful at those moments, few & scarce as they are.Think everyone goes a little crazy being 'normal' when we truly are at best being ourselves as odd as others may find it.

Like - p i g z y II - said i'm pretty emo. I do explain myself well but havn't we all found ourselves at a sudden loss of words? OR for me the sudden loss of restrictive clarity where i cant or refuse to convey what i innately feel coz i cant justify it perfectly in words learned. It frustrates me wkhai! Really does. Demanding perfection for my most important things is a flaw of mine. One im content to foster.

I just want to be be able to explain something so perfectly close to my inner intentions so that however it is recieved by another i know i did what was best within my complexity to make them understand. Thats why i call it Silenced Epiphanies. Language remains a barrier for even with my extensive vocabulary,intricate train of thought & flair for prose, when it comes to capturing my deepest drowning senses it fails me so. I've often found myself muted in defiance when i have the world to say to someone, my special someone.

But i guess i'm kind of lucky he just seems to know. Know what i innately feel without me wording it out as i refuse to do for lack of control over its less then 'perfect' voicable form. He may not understand it but he aknowledges it as part of me & thats all one needs really. To be aknowledged. I love my boy, love that he's beginning to 'see' me & adores me for it. How he refuses to let me get away with biting back my words. I am hell bent on remaining dementedly optimistic. Dont spoil it 4 me wkhai :P

Thanks to everyone for commenting, sms-ing me to see how i am, mailing me, calling me. I'm gd. Really.

love lots -sweetnessless bri-

Comments

[wkhai]

haha, bri... i get you!

perhaps the fact that you have too extensive a vocabulary is your bane... so much so that if the exact word doesn't come to mind, a similar word that's even 99% close to the exact meaning just won't convey your exact feelings and just doesn't cut it! ;)

what i meant by examples and illutration... is something you refuse to consider, given your demand for perfection... why say in 20 words when the essence can be captured in one word, eh?

it's good that your boy acknowledges it, 'sees' you, adores you for it... and likely accepts that this is you... he must be really good at the subtle and unspoken language... and i sense that you're loving it! ;)

and no, i'm not gonna spoil it for you :P just glad to know that you're good.

[-p i g z y II-]

'Language remains a barrier for even with my extensive vocabulary,intricate train of thought & flair for prose, when it comes to capturing my deepest drowning senses it fails me so.'
Totally agree. There's jus so much that words can express. It's good to know that you hv found someone who understan and sees ur unspoken words. ; )