Something Small

Just give me something i can hold onto. Something small that can float on the surface of which im drowning. Something i can reach for. Just give me something i can use. Something small that can sit on tip of my tongue to make excuses for you. Something i can turn to. Just give me something i can keep. Something small that can fit into the cracks of my broken heart. Something meant only for me.

Is there something specially for me, anything left specially for me? Its hard to believe it when u've been with so many people. Dont they all become the same to u? Makes me wonder if i am exclusive to you at all. Not just another shiny trophy amongst ur shiny trophies. Making up in numbers what it lacks in quality.

So there i am on the shelf, cant help wondering foolishly and hopefully how i can be shinier. Petty & small. I feel petty & small on this shelf you have when im not even a trophy. Who am i kidding. I'm every mans trophy. Something to have for display & in later days reminisince in pride.

Wish i were something more. Even if it were something small. Just something small that meant more. Then as it is again, it is not what i wish for, is it?

Comments

[-p i g z y II-]

we all just need that lil' something to make us feel that we truly are exclusive in that someone's heart, don't we. and yet, that lil' something is so hard to find and understand by many. you are a emo person, i think. i am. eventhough i should be happy and contented. i like the way you write. ; )

[Henry]

In the end, we need more than mere acknowledgement.

One needs realise, that not everyone thinks the same way, and that's actually a good thing.

Like you say; perhaps you hide yourself too well; and so your discontentment(?) may come as a surprise.

With time allowed for them to think; a more complete response would have to be forthcoming.

[brigette]

We should be happy & contended. Guess its coz we are still holding on the the idea of a Perfect Love eventhough we are aware that the beauty's in the Imperfection. I'm emo too - p i g z y II - :]

In response to Henry, we do need aknowledgement. Ur with someone. Someone u choose out of the seaful of fish. He's my fish. If he cant aknowledge me, who will? But like u said, its more than that. How much more is the million dollar question.

[wkhai]

just a shot in the dark... what you're lacking, is probably some real quality time together - just the two of you, with absolutely no interruptions from anybody and anything else.

times like these are unique to just you and you alone. plan something elaborate, or plan something simple... but just do something out of the ordinary, something away from the routine, something away from everybody else... isolate yourselves from everything and everybody else for that few hours or for a day or two... and you can claim the memory of that as being unique and exclusive to you and you alone.

what you do and where you go... that's up to your imagination... but make it a memorable one!

[MaE -VIP-]

bri,u said it just right. :)
we girls ponder tht question all the time.
sigh..men..